"Just my feeling"

I believe everyone have a pressure, hanya saja setiap orang melampiaskan tekanan dengan cara yang berbeda-beda, biasanya saya akan menyanyi atau berbicara masalah dengan my sister, but sekrang saya sulit melampiaskan dgn mereka karena hp saya rusak, memerlukan waktu 2 bulan n then my sister jga g da..yang pastinya tekanan berada di rumah 10 kali lipat lebih berat daripada di luar, ttpi saya harus menerima kenyataan ini..yahhh..novi..sabar ya :) beberapa minggu ni saya mencoba dengan berbagai cara untuk melampiaskan, yaitu dengan olahraga dan menyibukan diri.. haha..yah.sometimes i'm feel. the more I try to pressure myself into doing a perfect job, the more problems I cause for myself and paradoxically the more my performance suffers. "Pressure is a Vitamin to me cuz no matter how I perform, things will be OK" “有压力才会有进步，有佛法就有办法”。 jangan mengeluh, semakin kita mengeluh, masalah itu akan menpersulit kita. but now, i feel so fresh！

"live in hatred is just the same like living in misery" 

I don't know what happened with that relationship suddenly became cold, strange n uncomfortable, 

I don't care about people who suddenly treat me like this. For people who really know about me, will really know my nature. I am not insensitive, if it is to clarify the issue, I really need an explanation, if an explanatory unclear then I'm still not care. People who always talk about my badside in the back, is it a person who does not have something to do? he/she once said, if we only live once, isn't life is precious? so why does he/she have to do things to hurt people? year after year, we are getting older, and people face the world with a smile n a positive mind. 

yahh..i know, This is not a normal relationship with her/him..

i believe, she/he know..i try not to care, but i still care in the end so don't make me care for you cuz you can make everything better, you can do it to yourself and your life. Sometimes with turning ourself to the positive things that will make us stronger in personal.

mana diri saya? hahaha...

Perlombaan murid-murid Sma saya, untuk menyambut 17 August
jia yo! jia yo! :D

Sometimes "We need changes our life"

Hello Monday ! hello friends! it's a monday don't forget to be awesome,okay? together to be awesome!:) walaupun masih terasa capek, ngantuk, but sebagai muda-mudi, semangat untuk hidup, don't forget it!
yah...writing my story again.. :)

my good student :)
Grup Sharing n the theme "i'm not stupid"

Today..In a meeting with senior high school teachers to discuss student graduation, I sat at the back, while at the front row were the senior teachers. most of the time I was silent n listened seriously, so many teachers gathered, in fact there were some of them were my teachers at Sutomo.  When I was at senior high school, that teacher was my sport teacher, I remembered that the teacher often gave me punishment. cuz of in Estafette running, I was always come last. haha... cuz of me my group lost.haizzz..so sad T.T (kenangan buruk di masa SMA).
But now, I think the teacher didn't recognize me anymore then now the teacher called me "Miss Novi".    Oooooh no!! (sprtinya aku masih tidak pantas menerima panggilan ini, krna saya masih perlu belajar dari dia)

 I was just silence n smile every time the teacher called me in respect. The teacher even had a joke with me as coworkers. I suddenly realised that the teacher was a good teacher. Will I be like that teacher? (dari status murid sekrng menjadi status guru) hmmm... memang cukup bangga ketika murid kita sukses dan menjadi guru, tetapi.....jika saya adalah dia, saya akan merasa ada yang kurang. Not alive, need to change though not much.

Come on, Selfie..selfie!! 

We need changes our life, maybe workplace or status n role, but if we still stood in the same place, just like frog in the turtle shell, is that right?  I've been changing jobs to find the suit one and won't be the burden for parents. Some of it are by being a tourguide and teacher are some of the suitable job for me. from being a tutor, kindergarten teacher , elementary school teachers, junior high school teacher, senior high school teacher and a teacher for special children .. This trip must have been full of challenges n tests. since I love changes, people become better because of my influences. I like social n adventure activities, work hard n enjoy my life process.

Holistic Kindergarten International School 

As long as I'm single, so  I have to enjoy my life. Yeah, being single doesn't mean you haven't any relationship, it's just the true love is not coming yet for being together with you n belongs to you now. If not, no problem, yeah..I just pray for all (I love) for the best & pray for myself too for the best.
The last word, I like people who can inspire me to be better, Thank you! because I'm not a person who is perfect, sometimes i'm feel so lucky to be born as not perfect person, but i have a happy story n life :)

Inside of them, I can feel n understand what is pure love, love that doesn't valued from material matter, but build from trust, love each other, support each other, changing each other's bad habits, n ready to change to be better.Photo by : Novi halim LOL  "I'm a good photographer?? yes or no?"hmmmm...

A well being love doesn't rely on a "love" because love can turn to hate, turn to be selfishness “egoistic".
"So what is the important thing?" The most important thing is "Trust n sincerety."
There is nothing obsolutes in this world, as long as our goal in life is in the correct path n to be a good person. Any obstacles n challenges won't be able to dissapear from a sincere love, if love is the one who compels, it's better to let it go, If it's the love who is unrequited, better to let it go! If it wants to keep the distance, just obey it.
 If what we wants is only their happiness, just let them choose.
 If the destiny says that they're meant to be yours it'll be yours if it's not, they will be just lucky stars for you. :)

My lucky star :)

"Thank you to someone special Friend"

Sometime I very miss someone who yelled at me with anger  "stop it novi, you are so childish!, you are not a weak person, don't suffer you are strong, be mature novi!, don't be weak because I hate weak people, change your appearance to change yourself to be a better person, Don't do gossip!, I hate people who only talks with no action!, I hate a crybaby! Stop it novi don't use your feelings!"
I have lost this honest person, someone who doesn't care about my feelings but his feelings which made me realize a lot of things. Cuz now I live surrounded by people who praised me only to see me laugh but don't aim to change me to be a better person. I hate this feelings of yearn that is torturing...
I want to say thank you, but in real life, I can't say...
Thank you for saying rude words
Thank you for those who hate n get angry to me
Thank you for those who support me
Thank you for your kindness about saying the truth and logically.
Thank you for those who have ever been my humorous and funny brother.
I have never regretted to be your friend..

Thank you my family, my best friend, my special one :)